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Haha [18 Aug 2006|04:00pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

I'm so bored so I shoplifted...

from Kelly ;)

1. Where were you 6 hours ago?
Babysitting at my aunt's house. awful.

2. Who will be your next kiss?

3. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
some undies and shirts

4. When is the last time you went to the mall?
tooooo long ago haha I love the mall.

5. Are you wearing socks right now?
flops it is!

6. When was the last time you went out of the state?
ummm about a month ago to williamsburg on vacation

7. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
no i usually go fridays. and the last movie i saw was pulse. and it really sucked.

8. What was the last thing you had to drink?
some good ol fashioned agua

9. What exactly are you wearing right now?
ummmmm jean capris...my roxy watch. a roxy tube top that sorta resembles a polo with the material and buttons. uh yes.

10. Have you been in a car wash?
yes when they let you drive it through my parents did...and well that big tooth brush makes me happy!

11. Last food you ate?
a slim jim haha

13. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
not that i remember

15. What's the last sporting event you watched?
ummm can't tell ya

16. What is your favorite class?
American Literature/ creative writing classes

18. Last 2 people's houses you were in?
Darian's and my Aunts

How old are your parents?
Mutha is 43 and Dad is 44

21. Do you miss anyone?
Samaris. a lot lately.

22. Last play you saw?
haha Wicked as well.

23. What are your plans for the day?
I am probably going to dinner and a movie and target with Darian as we are losers and it is date night.

25. Ever go to camp?
yes. it was horrible.

26. Were you an honor roll student in school?

27. What do you know about the future?
that I can go back to it like Michael J. Fox ;)

28. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
coco cabana.

31. Do you have a tan?
not too much no :/

32. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
ummm like 24ish

33. Do you collect anything?
ummm alligators shit and sewing junk.

34. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
last novemberone time like 3 years ago.

35. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
yes duh

36. How do you like your drinks?

37. Do you like hot sauce?

38. Last time you took a shower?
yesterday nightly.

39. Who do you have a crush on?
Darian and JD from Scrubs haha

40. What is your mood?
sleepy :(

41. Are you someone's best friend?
yessir I have two of those badboys pretty sure haha

42. What was the last book you read?
The Devil Wears Prada...I guess I left my deep days behind haha jk...

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haha [16 May 2006|01:40pm]
Is it lame that to admit that I bought the Ashley Angel cd...and that I like it?

Well I do so there.

We visited Sammy's memorial on Mother's Day and left flowers, a sephora mirror :), and a vanilla milkshake (her favorite). We also lit candles and brought new ones (we are going thursday to bring some more and maybe strawberry poptarts (uh duh frosted one of her other favorites!). It was beautiful which is only befitting. Dean is getting his tattoo outlined today and I can't wait to see it <3

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I love you. [29 Apr 2006|11:52am]
[ mood | calm ]


I know you can't read this, but I know that you hear me when I pray for you. I know you visit me, I saw the door open by itself yesterday morning and a warm breeze came in---it was you. Yesterday was the hardest day of my life so far, it was probably the hardest day for all of us. I'm praying for you everyday love and for Dean and Collin and your beautiful family. We drank to you yesterday, Samaris. It was hard to say goodbye, but you looked beautiful and like you were in a calm sleep. Being able to talk to your family made me realize that you were an angel on Earth and that you're most definately watching over us. You brought us together in an unfortunate light but I know you were there last night drinking some of Pete's rum. I smiled at the thought of you- it's what you would have wanted. I'll always hold you dear, you were so unique love. This is goodbye on this platform, but I will see you in the future, it's inevitable. We'll make sure little Collin knows how important and beautiful you are. Know that Dean is in good hands and we'll do everything we can for him.

I love you dear, I just wish I got to say that sooner.


*Liana and Katie-Love thank you for being so special <3
*I'm gonna try and be there for Dean the best I can and make sure Pete, Pat, Diana, Megan, ect. are okay....

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"wishing you were somehow here again." [25 Apr 2006|01:15am]
It hurts to have to say goodbye to someone, but I suppose it's only in this lifetime. What hurts even more is that I'm numb and tommorow I'll realize I never told you how sweet a person you are...and how you made a great mother. We all love you Samaris...

Goodbye love...I wish you were here.

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Expressionless. [09 Dec 2005|09:41pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Well, yesterday was my birthday. I am no longer a teen. I am 20....its insane. I'm not getting any younger ha.

It was nice though. I went to school...beat as hell. Got a "B" on my Intro to Lit paper :( Got a B + on my Shakespeare paper :( Oh well. Then I left school early to pick up Liana-face cause her car is broken. We got stuffing at Boston Market haha and then Darian picked us up to look at her car. The ignition is shot :( poor doll face. I hope its not too expensive.

Went to dinner with the family. The former ground round. Nice as usual. I got money from my aunt/ uncle, parents, grandparents (to get my hair done) and my brother and grace (!) gave me money too.

Now onto a crazier subject. The boy got me:

The Rent Sountrack
Seasons 1 and 2 of Strangers with Candy (to complete me collection)
and a 100 dollar gift card to Sephora
The 2-disc Bob Dylan Tribute Cd
Real Geniuses DVD.

He frigging spoils me. I loved all my gifts and am so excited to get my hair done.

And his mama and daddy got me a 100 dollar gift card to the MELTING POT. Oh man. We're SO going thursday.

And I'm really looking forward to this weekend. We didn't get snow so I had to wake up early for lab and I'm exhausted.

I can't talk...almost at all I lost my voice. But I had a nice afternoon.

Darian came over to nap with me, we went to house of chong...I helped him study. I'm still sick. Went to work. Got out early. Waiting for the lad to get home from arbys.

:) he's home :)


I work tommorrow...then I'm babysitting Kristen at 8:30 for my mama. We'll probably go and grab some pizza and such <3

Sunday Me, Liana, and Katie are going to Philly to visit Sam and have a nice little ladies day :) It's gonna be rad and I'm gonna do a lil Christmas shopping.

Remind Me- I have to order that hotel.

<3 love.

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bitches!!! [02 Dec 2005|10:57pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Oh man I'm bored. I feel bad I got Darian really upset last night and I feel really badly. But he isn't mad at me :) so now I am happy gal. but I didn't eat dinner and I am tired so well I'm a little cranky.

We went to Ihop last night. Our waiter sucked. Our food was decent.

1. If you had to be named after a disney character who would it be? Probably Belle

2. At what age did you first masterbate? Not sure

3. Have you ever thought of your parents while you were having sex? that's disgusting.

4. What food does your body odor most nearly resemble? nothing!?

5. What does your lover smell like? hollister cologne and clean clothes

6. When somebody smokes a cigarette after drinking a glass of orange juice, what does their breath smell like? orange death?

7. Rate your racism 1-10. 1.5 everyone's secretely a little biased

8. What race do you dislike the most? Why? None in particular :/

9. Is Denzel Washington a nigger? that's a terrible word. But I think he's a trite actor.

10. Do you enjoy popping pimples? I don't really have much experience

11. Do you like the taste of your blood? not really

12. What movie makes you horny? none really

13. What is the dumbest movie you have ever cried in? probably donnie darko it wasn't dumb just inappropriate for crying.

14. Have you ever feared that some one specific gave you an STD? Who were they? no.

15. Anal intercourse Yes/No? eh

16. Do you mind when someone kisses you after they performed oral sex? no I do not

17. What is your stance on euthanasia? euthanasia, sure.

18. Do you save your birthday cards? a few.

19. How often do you change your sheets? less than I should.

20. What sex toy would you like to try? none, but I guess warming lubricants are always effectual haha

21. Have you ever killed an animal for pleasure?(not an insect) that's insanely retarded. def. not.

22. Have you ever gotten a tick in your belly button? no! that's odd.

23. What is your grandmother's name? Eileen and Joan

24. What's your favorite Dr. Seuss book? I didn't really read him.

25. Have you ever done karate? What belt level did you reach? nope but my mam was a brown belt.

26. What is your power animal? an alligator they are so cute.

27. Which Willy Wonka was better, old or new? old duh. johnny depp is creepy with those friggen teeth.

28. When your hair falls out in the shower do you stick it on the wall so it won't clog the drain? actually sometimes yes. weird.

29. Do you purposely play music loud in the car so that people outside it can hear? not usually since my mix lately has been johnny cash and that would be odd.

30. Do you hope the people who hear it will understand how you feel? what?

31. Do you have any drugs in your house right now? nope

32. How did you learn how to do E.V.I.L.? what

33. Did Jesus exist? yes

34. Do you understand vegans? nope :) and I'm happy in that.

35. Have you ever posed nude? sorta

36. Do you bite your toe nails? what? how?

37. After biting your nails do you play with them? that's gross.

38. Have you ever been mean? probably

39. Do you want your baby to take after you for looks? just my eyes nothing else.

40. What kind of palm do you have: Earth, Air, Fire, Water? pepsi?

41. Does sex smell good? its sex.

42. Girls: have you ever had a yeast infection? no I have not.
Guys: have you ever gotten Shmegma?

43. Are holes in jeans sexy? not really.

44. Is pink the new black? green is ;) oh sugar.

45. Are men the new women? huh?

46. Have you ever eaten Bibimbap? hum diddy no.

47. What is your social security number? 555-55-5555 nopey.

48. Did you ever look in your lunch box and think, "Fuck You Mom"? everytime I got a sandwhich. I used to bring like mac and cheese or fried chicken to school. Or this one time she used wasabi mayonase.

49. Have you ever used a fire extinguisher? no but they did in tremors.

50. Do injuries make you more attactive to the opposite sex? nope.

51. What is your target weight? like 60 pounds lighter.

52. Have you ever lied about your age just to see if the other person would believe you? nope.

53. Have you ever zipped your neck with your jacket? nope.

54. Have you ever smelled an artical of your lover's clothing when they weren't around? mmm yes.

55. Have you ever videotaped yourself having sex? nope!!!!!!

56. Do you shampoo your pubes? isn't that what soap is for?

57. Have you ever shaved your genitals for someone else? huh

58. Have you ever had a fake conversation on the phone, to make someone jealous? definately not

59. What's your favoirte kind of Bagel? garlic with liver pate and butter

60. Is armor cool? no.

61. Have you ever felt empowered from slamming a pay phone? not at all.

62. True or False. Muslims should just stop carrying bags? thats an odd question?

63. Have you ever had a homoerotic experiance with one of your friends? not really

64. Have you ever felt like one of your friends parents wanted to have sex with you? nope.

hmm jess

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hmmm [01 Dec 2005|10:32pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Oh snap.

My Birthday is in exactly a week. I'm going to be 20. I'm going to be not 19 haha. My mom sent me a text message today and was like, "Miss ya! Love ya! You're NOT getting older!" She's a crazy! :)

Today Darian and I have been dating for the lucky 13 months, but I'm stumped as to what to get him for Christmas. I was thinking maybe a trip to Baltimore. It wouldn't be too much and it would be a nice break for like a weekend. They have so much to do there and its SO pretty :) I was thinking we could go to the EDGAR ALLEN POE museum and grave site...to the world famous aquarium...on a 'duck tour' to get some worldly crab cakes...I think it would be very nice.

But I hope he'd like it. See, my Xbox 360 plan was obviously squashed :/ But I did get him a Darth Vader stocking!!!


Work is going well...I was a cashier today...which makes me happy because it goes by quicker and only me and one other seasonal boy are doing it so that gives me an extra point :) :) :) in the I need to keep this job game. I mean I friggen bought my parents a tv.

And coming to that famed tv...I may have to return it cause I honestly without a doubt do NOT think it'll fit. Oh well...serious radio anyone?

BUT on a plus, I have been babysitting for my aunt lately...which is good because its a little extra stiphen of money per week. So far I babysat like 8 hours and about 5 coming on sunday so an extra 130 bucks isn't bad. I'm doing alright.

I bought Amanda her present, Parents (though I may have to take that statement back), My future parent (haha) Darian's dad, Part of Darian's (his stocking stuff) Kristen, and my cousin Caitlin...

So now I have: Darian. Jeanette and Tim. Bobby. Megan. Diane (Darian's Mama). And my gal's (depending on what we're doing...we may do a secret santa so that is not yet conclusive).

I love Christmas time...but this year its going to be a little bit weird. I feel ultra like a grown up because my mom'll probably get me gift certificates to somewhere...weird.

But hopefully it'll snow soon.

I need to hop in the shower and stop boring people with my ultra-optimistic lifestyle :/

I miss Smapsasaurus Rex! I think perhaps next week we shall visit her!!!


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:) [18 Nov 2005|12:17pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Things are going pretty swell. Costco is pretty good, the time goes by and I don't mind it. I've been working there for 3 weeks now and I get paid pretty nicely next friday :) but I do have to give my mama car insurance so that sucks.

I really wanted to get Darian the XBox 360 for Christmas but I have a feeling I have work on Tuesday and it'll be impossible to get if I don't wait overnight :/ oh well. He would've killed me if I got it for him, but it's really the only thing he wants I dunno...I'm torn. I'd of course get the one that can play the old XBOX games cause the other one is a waste.

I'm going to Honduras in May with Georgian Court. I have to fundraise like crazy and I'm a little nervous about going but yesterday we had our first meeting and I'm so excited. I've always wanted to go out of the country and to give back. It's going to be hard to be away from my family, friends, and especially Darian for a week...i see him EVERY day.


My necklace came back engraved...its pretty sweet--booyah.

I didn't know Harry Potter came out...I thought it was coming out the day before thanksgiving? Oh well! I want to see Walk the Line tonight!!!!

1. male friends: Darian
2. female friend: ;) Lianaville, Katie, Smapsys--- tattoos coming soon :)
3. vacation: hmm Charleston, SC or Florida
4. memory: ummm Peter Squirrel...the first 'i love you' also.

1. Hair style: ummm when it was short and red but the one time they effed it up oh gosh.
2. Day of the week: probably tuesday cause it always feels like thursday but the week still drags on
3. Fear: the dark :( spiders too
4. Memory: hmmm I have a few
5. Girlfriend/boyfriend: nobody

1. Talked on the Phone With: darian
2. Kissed: darian
3. Hugged: darian
4. Email: from like the melting pot or something
5: IM: probably katie or smaps

1. Words: I have no idea
2. Car: 1988 Honda Prelude...fire engine red haha :( shes dead
3. First school: Emma Havens Young
4. Job: Lonestar Steakhouse
5. Kiss: some weird kid through a fence in like 3rd grade

Right Now
1. Wearing: I probably look like a slob but I'm wearing jeans and a cozy starting line sweatshirt
2. Time you woke up: 7 am ugh.
3. General Mood: sleepy and cold

1. Is: happy saturday
2. Got any plans? sleeping in, work from 3:30-8:30...hanging with liana? the boy? who knows!
3. Goal: to finish this semester without gray hairs haha
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: the cold weather
5. Do you have work?: yes

1. Number: 311 ;)
2: Song: Three's a Charm- the Startingline
3. Color: green, blue
4. Season: winter
5. State: new jersey or south carolina
6. Food: fettuchini alfredo...stuffing

1. Rather be: napping or with the boy or the ladies
2. Things you got to do: go to my voice lesson, pick up kristen, relax for .3 seconds, go to work
3. People you have to call: liana ;) and dyanna i think
4: Any secrets you need to let out: not at all

Played Spin the Bottle? actually no

Toilet Paper someone's house?: for cheering way back in the way hay day

Played Poker with money?: nope I did play go fish with crackers though jk

Gone swimming in a white T-shirt?: no

Been tickled so hard you couldn't talk?: yea yesterday :0!

Like someone but never told them?: of course

Went camping?: yes ma'm

Had a crush on your brother's/sister's friend?: nope my brother's a dud

Walked in the rain without an umbrella?: i don't even own an umbrella so yes

Told a joke that Nobody thought was funny?: yes.

Been in a talent show?: not really no

Worn somthing your mom didn't appove of?: nope

Been to a nude beach?: not at all

Burnt yourslef with a curling iron/straightner?: yes i burned my ear really badly once

Been hit on by someone too old?: haha a couple of times at the dollar store and the people greeter at walmart haha

Wanted to be a model? nope

Bought lottery tickets?: yes!

Made out in a car?: of course

Cried during a movie?: haha i'm a sucker

Wanted something you couldn't have? yes

Had sex on the beach?: no sand in those areas I can't imagine feeling pleasant

Had the drink sex on the beach?: no

Seen someone shoplift?: yes

Hung up on someone?: yes

Yelled at your pet?: yes

Bought a thong when the casheir was a guy?: no

Tried to strip when drunk?: no

Gotten seasick?: yea just the feeling not the actual action

Had a stalker?: dave levine kind of haha he looked up my house it was odd

Played a prank on somone that had them really scared?: no

Been embarassed by someone in your family?: not really

Felt bad about eating meat?: mmm bring on the beef! no.

Protested ?: no

Been to an island?: no

Ate just because you were bored?: who hasnt.

Screamed in a library?: that sounds fun.

Wished a part of you was different?: yes.

Asked a guy to dance?: darian doesn't like dancing :( I wanted to dance at the german restaurant

Been asked out by a really hot guy?: darian...but he's more of a cute not a hot? I dunno how to describe it

Laughed so hard you cried?: yea!

Been sunburned?: :/ yes

Threw up in school?: yes

Recieved an anonymous love letter?: nope

Had to wear something you hated?: yes

saw your ex and wanted to kick his ass?: no

Cursed in front of your parents?: yesum

Watched a movie that made you miss your ex?: nope

Been out of the country?: not yet in may ;)

Been honked at by some guy when you were walking down the sidewalk?: yep foreigners usually

Went on a diet?: yes

Been lost out to sea?: yes I am currently featured in the show lost :) jk

Cheated on your bf?: never. will never. I hate that.

Been cheated on?: no

Tanned topless? always

Been attacked by seagulls?: uh in my sunroof yes haha

Been searched in an airport?: only the standard search like metal detectors

Been on a plane?: only a few times

Been pants-ed? darian tries to do it but it doesn't work...unless of course I want it to

Thown a shoe at someone?: yea haha

Broke someone's heart?: probably not

Sung in the shower?: yes

Bought something way too expensive? haha yes

Been walked in on when you were dressing? yes

Ran out of a movie theatre because you were too scared of the movie? never that's lame

Been kicked out of the mall?: never sometimes I wish I could've been cause our mall sucks

Done something stupid when you were drunk?: yea definately

Fell off your roof? uh no?

Had a deer jump in front of your car?: they're like a brick wall! I'm scared that if they hit me I'll total them and my car haha


Unwrap a starburst with your tounge?: no I wish

Sing? yes

Open your eyes underwater?: actually not really

Eat whatever you want and not have to worry? nope.

Ice skate?: not well but yes

Sing in front of a crowd?: its hard but yes

Whistle?: yes

Be a bitch at times?: definately haha

Do thirty pull ups?: nope!

Walk in in really high heels?: not too well

Eat super spicy foods?: yummy yes.

Skateboard?: nope

Sleep with the lights on? never I hate that

mulititask?: surely

touch your nose with your tounge?: almost...almost...

fall asleep easily in the car?: never

Do the cotton eye joe?: no I hate that song

Surf?: I would like to take lessons over the summer

Fit in your locker?: my middle school one!!! It was huge!!! New wing ruled.

Do a split?: back in the day



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I plan on sleeping in... [09 Nov 2005|02:04pm]
[ mood | happy ]

:x I slept in today, when I probably should've went to class. Well, I went to class, just not my first one. Yesterday, I spent the night at Darian's house after I got off of work at Costco (my new job). My car is in the shop so he was supposed to bring me to school...

Well last night we played this 'Who Wants to Be a Millionaire' tv game and watched some tv and stuff...so we were sleepy. Set the alarm for 8:30. "Darian, I don't want to go to school." -Me either. Let's sleep in!!! We both had no absences in our first classes so it was all gravy ;) We slept until 10:20...and we wanted to sleep some more, but I had work study and such...so we left for school.

It was nice sleeping in though, but I fear I could've slept all day.

It's nice sleeping next to the boy :)

Then...I'm here. I did some of my homework, but I have the wrong lit book so that sucks. My mama is picking me up at 4 and we are going to get some clothes at Kohls. Although, they do sell lucky brand jeans at Costco so that's pretty sweet. They are originally like 90 bucks!

Anyway, the lovely love Katie is coming over tonight since we didn't have our Monday Night Laguna get together. :) I am excited I love that darling to death. We are figuring out a day to visit Samita!!! Our lovey!!!

Chicken Little is the best movie ever! Me and Smaps saw it Friday...yea suckers.

Darian gets out of work at 4 tommorrow and I am off from work :) Perhaps we will go to a nice dinner or something.

Christmas is soon

but even sooner is my birthday...less than a month away I will no longer be teen ;)

I miss Liana :( And Mexico Lindo...she keeps mentioning it!


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It is November 2nd on November 2nd. [02 Nov 2005|12:35pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Yesterday was a nice day :) it made me happy.

It started off rocky cause I had to get up early and I was really "moody" :/ So I went to school blah and Darian picked me up and brought me to Costco...where I got the job. I load shopping carts for 10 an hour. Yeehaw :) But they are setting up an orientation so I'm not too sure on when I start.

Then I was moody and I apologized profusely. But we went to Target so I could discreetly buy another gift and wrapping paper. I had Macaroni and Cheese from the Food Court there for lunch haha.

Darian gave me my anniversary present. Boy I almost slapped him. He got me a Tiffany's necklace :O! Those things are crazy expensive. But I love it :) We're getting it engraved with my initials and his initials and are anniversary date. He didn't get it done there because Tiffany's only does up to 3 letters and it would have taken an additional 2 weeks. But its so pretty and I can't wait to have it engraved! He also got me the ultra mega humungo edition of the Wizard of Oz...its really cool :) I of course enjoy it because I love the Wizard of Oz. He also got me the rerelease of the Early November Cd.

Then we went to House of Chong for Darian's Birthday with the family and Brian and Andy (also the family haha). Brian did not know what a 'Pu Pu platter' was haha.

We went back to Darian's house---he opened his presents!!! He was so happy and loved the Spamalot tickets and everything. I felt good about that...he hugged me at least a trillion times.

And then Brian, Darian, and I played Star Wars Trivial Pursuit that I picked up for Darian...needless to say Darian won. Then I got to sleep next to my boy :) and he's in Atlantic City now winning some green ;)

And tonight we are going to a nice restaurant for our anniversary. I told him I'd drive if he wanted to drink a crazy German beer haha but I REFUSE to drive the mustang...that's too scary for me.

I can't believe this past year...its so crazy to think I found the most perfect boy in the world.


Sam and Katie!!! We hanging this weekend!!!!!!!!!?????!!!!!?!?!??!?!


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:/ [28 Oct 2005|11:07am]
[ mood | sick ]

I am in work study and once again...on the computer and bored.

Saves the Day was amazing on tuesday- though Ace (from the Early November) his cousin was in the audience and was DEFINATELY on something. Oh well...it was a good show regardless. I danced my little Saves the Day loving heart out :)

I stayed at Darian's overnight...was exhausted from the show...went to school. Had a "substitute" in American Lit. and he told us to stay until the end. Well, I finished like 15 minutes before and wasn't feeling well so I left. Apparently, we're not receiving credit for that day and hopefully we won't get a lecture. I really like Dr. Cappucci he's a nice professor and i don't want my views of him tainted; however, I feel that since I pay 20,000 a year to come hear...I am paying a teacher--not an empty room. I wasn't going to sit in a classroom for 20 minutes and not be productive when I could be doing homework---especially his paper. Ugh. Teachers can be simple minded sometimes. Honestly, why should I sit in a classroom doing absolutely nothing? Any suggestions? There were only six out of nearly 30 kids left in the room.

Despite all that I hope I still receive credit.

Wednesday, my Mama made my favorite dinner :) so Darian and I ate at my house and then went to his house to carve pumpkins. :) I made Animal from the Muppets and it came out really good! Darian made Slimer from Ghostbusters, Megan made Hello Kitty, Darian's Dad made a Pirate, his Mom a cat, Andy- Shaun of the Dead, and Amanda made Spike from Buffy....They were very IMPRESSIVE.

Yesterday and today I am sick :( I felt like a million bucks minus 10 million bucks. It was not fun cause I had to work. I did make like 60 bucks last night--- but me and Darian got some Dominos thin crust and I have like 40 left. Owell.

Me and the Dads is looking at a car today. I hope it'll work out. Then I have a job interview at Costco--they START at 10 bucks an hour :)!!!! And I'll probably be full time!!! But, apparently, its Seasonal for now but if you 'perform well' you will most likely be hired as a permanent cause of the big store they're building.

I hope things work out :/

Then me and Gillian are going to Surf Taco...and later than that I am going to see Saw II with Darian-- its a tradition thing :)

Sunday is the Halloween Party!!! Yay! Me and Darian got all of our supplies for Fight Club costumes...I even started Christmas shopping.

boy o boy.

Martes es muy importante porque es cumpleaños de mi novio,Darian. El día es noviembre primero. Darian va a ser 21 años. Y tambien Darian y yo hemos estado fechando para un año.

Basically, Tuesday...is Darian's 21st birthday and our 1 year anniversary. SO IF SHAWN and such thinks they can have him they cannot. Only me and his family can ;)

the following are the things I got him for his b-day/ anniversary...are they okay?:

Spamalot tickets
Spamalot Soundtrack
Land of the Dead video game for X-Box
Evil Dead Shirt
Zombie Board Game
and a cd I made him
I feel as though that isn't enough :/


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i'm really bored. [24 Oct 2005|12:31pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Katie dear is coming over tonight...YAY!!! But I am working probably only until like 8:00 though so that's pretty sweet. I really need a new job but I'm waiting for Charlie Brown's to call...they assured me they would so I hope I'm not waiting in vain. :/ My brother had to drop me off at school today and he was all pissed off that he had to get up early. Whatever.

I saw Henry Rollins on Friday AND Saturday. They were both bangin good times...I enjoyed them. Especially Saturday at the Borgata because Henry was being called a pussy...by a dumb drunk 20something guy and he definately put him down. People like that are retarded. Henry Rollins was like...'Well, you can talk after I talk...which is in the car to your friends on the ride home.'

And then I went to Samaris's baby shower yesterday. It was nice...then I worked and I saw the boy for a little bit. His birthday is soon!!!! I snagged a baby picture and we're going to embarrassingly place it on a cake. HAHAHA! Tomorrow is Saves the Day :) I am rediculiously excited.

But at the current moment I'm bored...

I AM: Jessie
I HAVE: a big jug o orange juice
I WISH: i had a permanent means of transportation...i.e. a CAR.
I HATE: waiting around.
I MISS: Smapsy and Katie...though I'm seeing her soon...and who could forget LIANA :(
I FEAR: homework!
I HEAR: me typing these keys.
I SEARCH: for birthday presents.
I WONDER: if it's going to snow soon because it feels as though it will.
I REGRET: bleh I don't know.
I ACHE: nowhere currently.
I ALWAYS: am sleepy.
I DANCE: never, but I feel compelled to at German restaurants.
I SING: always.
I CRY: Eh sometimes cause I can get emotional.
I WRITE: often, but not as much as I used to :/
I LOSE: my cell phone...all the time.
I CONFUSE: the hell out of everything.
I NEED: a car and some cash.
I SHOULD: where sneakers and not always flips.

Yes or no....
You keep a diary: not really no.
You set your watch a few minutes ahead: the one in my car but she's dead.
You bite your fingernails: eh sometimes I get yelled at by Darian.
Take a shower everyday: try to but usually skip a day here and there
Have a(any) crush(es): yes
Think you know you've been in love: yes
Been hurt: yeah
Want to get married: yes
Have any tattoos/where?: no
Piercing/where?: my ears
Think you're a health freak: no
Get along with your parents: yes

NUMBER: none
COLOR: green
DAY: hmm fridays I'm in love
MONTH: november <3
SONG: Make it Happen- The Early November...
FOOD: fettuchini alfredo too!!! or German food mmm.
SPORT: I like to watch football on occasion
DRINK: frappachinos, orange juice
VEGGIE: spinach
FRUIT: coconut
FAST FOOD: surf taco? does that count?

In the last 24 hours have you:
HELPED SOMEONE? helped shop for baby shower gifts!
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no Saw II comes out next week haha.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? Yes went to the Borgata buffet
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no but I do like those
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? nope but my Brother I did fight with grawr

would you ever...
1. Eat a bug? if I was dying on an island with no food probably
2. Bungee jump? yes
3. Hang glide? yes
4. would you cheat on your bf/gf? definately not, i.e. get out of the relationship if you want to see other people AND done.
5. have sex with someone you didnt love? no
6. make out with someone of the same sex? not really sure...probably have by accident when drunk.
7. Parachute from a plane? yes
8. Walk on hot coals? maybe if I was cold enough
9. Go out with someone for his or her looks? if I was lonely enough
10. For their reputation? nope
11. Be a vegetarian? nope
12. Wear plaid with stripes? surely
13. IM a stranger? yes
14. Sing karaoke? yessir
15. Get drunk? yes
16. Shoplift? no
17. Run a red light? who hasnt.
18. Dye your hair blue? no blue would make me look like a corpse
19. Be on Survivor? yes
20. Wear makeup in public? yes?
21. NOT wear makeup in public? yes
22. Make someone cry? not on purpose
23. Kick a baby? not a real one!
24. Date someone more than ten years older than you? maybe.
25.Stay up all through the night? yes

Have you:
1.Fallen for your best friend? no
2.made out with a friend? no
3.been rejected? probably
4.been in love? yes
5.used someone? nope
6.been used? probably
7.been cool? no
8.done something you regret? i dunno

who was the last person...
9.you touched? darian
10.you talked to? my mama on the phone
11.you hugged? darian
12.you IMed? haven't used that in a while but probably Katie
13.you kissed? darian
14.you had sex with? darian
15.you yelled at? my brother
16.you laughed with? darian we were being silly last night
17.who broke your heart? nobody
18.who told you they loved you? darian

Do you...
19. color your hair? highlights
20.have tattoos? nope
21.have piercings? yes
2.have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes
23.own a webcam? no a digital camera yes
24.own a thong? yes several
25.ever get off the computer? yes always cause my dad is obsessed with party poker

Have you/do you/are you...
26. stolen anything? yes
27. schizophrenic? nope
28. are you obessive? with certain things
29. panic? yes

30. if you could be anywhere right now, where would you be? out of school.
31. what facial feature do you like most about your boyfriend/girlfriend? his nose :)
32. would you vote for a woman president? yes
33. would you marry for money? no
34. do you pluck your eyebrows? yes
35. do you like mustaches? no haha
36. when did you last have a hickey? a while ago
37. By who? darian
38. who do you want to kiss? darian
39. If you could get stuck with anyone in a closet who would it be? pedro. haha


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:'( [19 Oct 2005|09:00pm]
[ mood | weird ]

I get to see Miss Katie on Monday :) You know, Our Laguna day. Oh those be the good times!!! I hope everything works out for her...she is amazing.

But most importantly...her Halloween costume is going to be hilarious!!!! It's making me giggle as I think about it. Haha....Let's just hope my mams doesn't forget...she's the key element in all of this haha.


Nothing too interesting has been going on. I've been buying Darian's birthday presents even though I'm dead broke. Charlie Browns said they would call tomorrow...I'm hoping they do. I could really use a new job/ good money.

But I got the Zombie Board Game, the Evil Dead T-shirt, and the Spamalot tickets in the mail...

I also bought him the Land of the Dead game for Xbox...hopefully he doesn't pick it up.

I really wanted to get him this awesome Shaun of the Dead promo pack (It has the Cricket raquet Shaun beats the Zombies with) a tshirt, a hat, some Winchester pub glasses and coasters...all this random amazing ish. But the auction ends at around 4 am and its quite expensive so I don't know if I'm gonna get it. I've already spent a lot of money and I want to spend more...I just don't think its too advisable on my behalf...PLUS I still have Christmas to worry about

Yeah so Charlie Browns said I pretty much had the job they just gotta check out my references and then gimme a call Thursday. I'm really really really hoping. I NEED this :/ If not, unfortunately I don't know what to do.

And I need a car...I really want a little Sentra who knows.

I can't flipping register for classes until NEXT week...there are going to be no classes open groar.


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Muhahaha Happy Halloween (almost) [14 Oct 2005|10:53pm]
[ mood | cold ]

I've been so tired lately :( and this weather is definately not helping. Wednesday I cut out a few classes because I didn't sleep for like two days (I just couldn't I don't have a clue why) and Darian and I took an extended nap.

We went to the new Hibatchi for his Dad's Birthday---it was fun :) but then I had to write a 5 page Shakespeare paper and do 4 pages worth of lit homework...it was not fun at all.

I think my feet are beginning to thaw from all the rain.

I need a need job. For sure. I am not making enough money at all---but I did buy a few shirts from Hollister today. They are actually warm.

Since he doesn't read this---

I got Darian Spamalot tickets (in addition to other things) for his Birthday. I hope he likes em ;)

They aren't the best seats ever...but they just went back onsale and all the other seats are 'partial view'. Fuck I'm not paying 100 bucks a ticket and I can't even see the entire stage...so I got the first row of balcony full view...I was going to get a hotel room and we could stay over night, but I don't think he'd be able to get off.

So here is what I got for his B-day/ 1 year (so far):

1. A super cool Evil Dead shirt from Ebay
2. A Zombies Attack Board game (from Ebay)
3. Spamalot Tickets
4. Some random Zombie movie from Suncoast.

I feel like that doesn't seem like much...but I did spend a ton of money.

We are going to a Halloween party tomorrow :) I'm being Alice in Wonderland...a little trampier than the childhood classic, but its cute. I like it. Darian likes it... ;) We like it.

But for his party i'm being the crazy bitch Marla Singer from FIGHT CLUB :) and Darian is being the Narrator...I actually got the hat and such and I think I'm gonna pull it off well :)

Gillian and I went to surf taco today and that was sweet----

THOUGH I must say it was rainy and she kept hitting her breaks which makes me so jumpy everytime. That's what happens when you get into 2 accidents 2 days in a row.


So yea...now I'm going to see Dean and Samaris so yea.

I miss my Samalins (we're going to see her soonly!!!!) and my Katie love.

I will see em both soonlike.

Good night.


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:/ [10 Oct 2005|01:37pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Darian and I went on a Hayride last night...it was kind of hokey, but all hayrides usually are. It was his first!!! Haha, to me that's really funny, but he's from up North and its pretty much like a city...

this was in the middle of nowhere. It was quite creepy...

but I just realized I got bit by a few mosquitos :(

The ebay hunt is on today to find items for my fight club costume :) yeehaw. I need 1 black hat 1 pair of large sunglasses 1 black wig...hmmm I don't even know :)

I'm seeing Katie love tonight :) :) YEA YEA YEA :)


I miss smap.


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:) [07 Oct 2005|12:18pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Things have been decent lately I suppose.

The insurance company finally called my Mamsy back and they sent me a check for $1700 which is more than I honestly expected. So that is uber exciting.

Darian and I looked at cars yesterday and I saw the SWEETEST sentra...it was newer and blue and not too pricey...

but it was a stick...


...and it had too many miles. It was me though. Oh well.

So now I'm religiously looking for cars since I have a hefty deposit rearing and ready to go. But I think I'm taking out a student loan. That way, I won't have to worry about paying monthly since I have bills to pay for and Christmas is coming up and all...and I have car insurance to pay for so---I'm just going to wait until after I graduate to worry about paying for the car. BUT my parents can't cosign until next week, so if I find a car then I can leave a deposit and go from there :)

So things in that respect are looking up.

AND I got tickets to see Bright Eyes for Darian and I...yea yea insert "Conor Oberst is such a winer" but then listen to 'Digital Ash in a Digital Urn' and I assure you that you will dance your little heart out.

AND Darian and I went to my award's ceremony yesterday and went to Chevy's with my parents. My dad and Darian were like cracking up...it was obscene. And we watched some Zombie movie called, "Children Shouldn't Play with Dead things." THE ZOMBIES SAIL AWAY ON A BOAT AT THE END. It was so rediculious.


I am super emotional cause of certain thangs...so I feel badly. I hope Darian doesn't hate me for it.





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Attractive To-day. [04 Oct 2005|12:30pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

Well...nothing too interesting happening here.

Slept most of my days at Darian's while my parents were away cause I hate staying by myself.

I made a nice German dinner friday night for Darian's parents, sister, him, and my g-parents. It was fun :) but exhausting cause I cooked for like FOUR hours. By Darian did the dishes :) although, they are a little bit crusty haha.

Nothing too interesting happened the rest of the weekend. I made like 150 bucks on Saturday so that was pretty sweet.

I skipped the rest of my classes for the day :) I was tired.

Yesterday my Katie-Love came over :) I missed her. We watched Laguna and Zoolander haha.

Darian is turning 21 in less than a month oh my!!! and he just bought a mustang haha. word.

We saw Serenity...it was actually very good.

I am so boring




my smaps.

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oh boy. [15 Sep 2005|10:11pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Today was a mix of angry and very good.

weird right?

they posted a nice lil' jetta in the paper yesterday...great deal. I call get details...even better deal...i make arrangements to meet at 2...(i had a presentation) when I call for directions they had sold it...

in ONE friggin day...it must have been a sweet deal.

But like my g-pa said, "eh it was probably a lemon...it wasn't meant to be....jessie mahler is a sailor."

oh word.

then work was pretty good..I still think its weird that one of Katie's 'steves' works with me...he's pretty nice though.

I made like 50 bucks in like 4 hours so thats not too bad...though now i have to babysit saturday night :/ I could use the money.

Went to the melting pot with Jeanette, Timmy, and Darian last night...it was really nice and only 25 bucks a person...delicious.

Darian payed for the whole dinner and bought me fever pitch...he's the sweetest boy ever----i'm very lucky to have him :)

seeing my ladies tomorrow...its katie's b-day! booya.

i think i may have sprained my finger haha

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hey [14 Sep 2005|12:38pm]
[ mood | for the first time in days ]

I am in much better spirits these past few days. Darian, My sister, Tim, and I are going to the melting pot and afterward Tim is teaching me how to drive manuel.


My dad told me I'm going to hate it, but I want to AT LEAST give it a try. It'd allow me to get a ton of different cars...plus all the deals i've been getting are frickin manuel trans...word.

ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNND I spilled hot chocolate on my boob today haha.

I saw my lovely Katie last night :) she spent the night cause she has school today and we watched Sweet Sixteen and Laguna Beach....ha such guilty pleasure shows. I went to dinner with Dyanna at friendly's and we got free drinks and melted ice cream HOORAH! I tried calling Smaps back but it was just sound staticky...sort of like a robot chompin' on some batteries.

Well, I gotta pick up my accident report today...I'm getting 2000 bucks for my jalopy...so maybe this accident was a blessing in disguise.


Friday is gon' be the bomb! haha


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hmmm [09 Sep 2005|09:20pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I think this week/ past two weeks are shaping up to be some of the worst of my life.


and I just feel so broken...

Okay, everything happens "for a reason" but I'm starting to feel like somebody upstairs doesn't like me.

First there was yesterday...I ruined the person I care for and love the most's car and I'm so sorry...I wish I could just throw a bandaide on everything and it'd be better. I mean the other guy had some fault but still....

He'll find out the estimate tomorrow and I'm really scared.

And then today I wake up and my neck and back hurt and I had an 8am class...

Where I had no lab partner...and I just wanted to lay in bed and cry...

And then on my way home...just want to go home and nap...to temporarily suspend everything that has happened...

and no.

I'm in the left turning lane...WAY BEHIND THE LINE...waiting for the light...and a man named Moordicah hits me...and almost drives away.

"Fate works both ways"

yea...lemme tell you.

Whatever...the dude barely has insurance and like 8 babies. So we exchange numbers, the police, the whole shabang...

My mom comes and he tells her he probably can't pay for it that he'll pay the deductable through his insurance...

HELLO??? It's gonna be the same price if not more.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO he ended up calling my dad and saying that after the estimate he'd like to try and pay without going through the insurance.

And now I have killer insomnia and have other important things on my mind.

It sucks.

And what also sucks is I just feel so shell-shocked...I don't even want to drive anymore.

And I feel so guilty. Whatever money I get from this is going to Darian and his family...but he's giving me hard times about taking it.

"You have your own car to pay for."

Yea....but its not fair for me to have a car (I'm getting a new one and my aunt is lending me money) and him not too...

Oh and to top it all off i left my purse at my aunt's house so I don't have my license...with my luck I'll be pulled over.

I'm trying to see the bright side of things, but unfortunately I don't think they're there.

Katie's been talking to me and Liana too...I don't want them to worry...but I feel like a zombie just walking around with no emotion but grief...its appalling...and I'm sorry if your one of my ladies (Such as Sam...cause I love you) and I didn't tell you about it...they just kind of stumbled on this and asked me what happened...

but I guess I gotta realize...I was lucky in the fact that I'm alive and so is meg and we're barely scratched...cause i saw the car.

sorry for the sorrow.

I feel like such a downer.

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